Today marks the first day of my job hunt. I have no idea where to start. I have been job hunting since I was 18 years old. I am now 33 years old. Why can't I find the right job for myself? There is always something wrong with the job or me. I struggle with Anxiety and Depression. I had jobs where I loved the job itself. However, I did not enjoy the management. Somehow, I have had jobs where management does not train their employees well. I had two jobs in the last three years where management just threw me to the work. I spent hours and days trying to figure things out on my own. No wonder way I have so much anxiety.
I have done everything I could to figure my career life out. I took tests. I spoke with career counselors. I read books. I jumped from job to job. I haven't found anything. Everywhere I go it always ends up dead. I just do not understand why I can't figure this out. I thought I wanted to be a teacher, but when I finally got into the education world, I found out it wasn't for me. Then I worked with a temp agency. During my time with the Temp agency, I did find a job that I enjoyed, but it was only temporary. I have been trying to get a job with that company since I left, but I haven't had any luck. I have been trying since 2020.
The only job I have kept was working at Old Navy. It is the only job I have been able to keep. I have been with the company for 3 years. The management is fantastic. Not many places have good management. I have been through so many and left because of management. I would love to know why I can't keep a job and why I am not happy at the career I choose. I do have a learning disability. Comprehension is not one of my strengths. It takes me longer to communicate with someone in person and on the phone longer than a person who does not have a learning disability. The last job I had; my boss pointed out my conversations on the phone. He said, "I only hear your end of the conversation, but it took you a long time to come up with an answer. You do not sound confident on the phone." Well excuse me for not having any idea what I am doing. Excuse me for trying to figure out what the problem is and then trying to come up with a solution. I am sorry I take forever to think. Now looking for a job, I have to think about my learning disability and how it would affect my job.
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